Yes, i'm pregnant, but leave me alone - today's parent, Yes, i’m pregnant, but leave me alone.
Leave me alone, i'm pregnant (vlog #207), Leave me alone, i'm pregnant (vlog #207) grateful gordons. I'm allowed to be 16 and pregnant so all of you leave me alone, Want to watch this again later? My husband want to leave me alone during pregnancy, I'm 13 weeks pregnant of twins through ivf, and this is my first pregnancy. So I’ve been explaining CBT to a few friends and some of them scoff at first because who needs a little worksheet to tell you how to live your life? This resonates with why I find Tumblr to be a useful space for working through thoughts and ideas. But what happens when you talk about it with people who aren’t close friends and family?
Nothing like a humbling conversation with your father to remind you just how financially fucked you are.
With every pretense of mettle and pride stripped away, you email him because he already knows and because it seems he Gets It. My plane touched down at BWI late last Sunday night and I welcomed the inky darkness of the east coast sky to cloak the damp mess that arrived. While the cabin of commuters retrieve their luggage from overhead compartments and jostle for aisle position, I sit motionless, but for the quiet heaving of my chest. At this late hour, I send out a barrage of white flag text messages, inviting the kind of digital embrace to supplement the one I won’t be receiving at baggage claim. I follow the white lines of I-70 as we talk about wishing we could let go, break free, get gone and grow hope in whatever comes next. He asked me to explain what it felt like to experience a level of commitment like the kind marriage requires and I confessed I could not.
I’m convinced more than ever that real love is born in the ashes of the everything messy that came before. I want to tell you about my dad ringing our prayer bowl in the wind, and the metal ommmmmmm that lifted our silence and all our unspoken prayers up and off to the dusk and the mountains like gliders, like planes made of hands out speeding car windows, like kites. Many of the depressed people I know are highly intelligent and one thing that holds them back from coping with their depression, in my unprofessional opinion, is that they think they are too smart for therapy. Writing things out for a Tumblr audience is, I think, another way of slowing down and considering the what I am thinking and feeling. The above image is a version of a worksheet for Thought Challenging, one of the strategies for overcoming negative thinking. It takes commitment, and it takes time, so I’m thankful that I have the time and space in my life to work on this stuff right now. After fifteen years of learning how to manage my own mental health I am trying group therapy for the first time.
A week has passed since the gorgeous Glacier wedding, the one filled with a mountain of love so overwhelmingly epic, that it left you changed. I left the Minneapolis terminal in tears, apologizing to my mother, with whom I’d had the unexpected delight of spending five hours on an extended mid-day MSP layover.


Most of my pleas are suspended in the night sky and the glow of runway lights, but I finally connect with a friend and we share my drive home filling the silence with stories of broken hearts and longing for home.
We cheerlead each other and give some reprieve from the transparent fist pumping and self-talk we’ve grown tired of producing for ourselves. Have never witnessed more raw and unbridled emotion from a couple or the ferocious tribe who supports them. The most memorable feature of this wedding was strung together like the hand-made pompoms that swayed above us in the vast mountain sky. Mostly because I was cocky and overconfident and more committed to a china pattern than I ever was to him. Because it’s almost impossible to write about a wedding or a marriage without sounding like a flaunting 22 year old asshole on Facebook.
Makes me want to twist just one leaf off this tree of life and scribble onto it as many tiny stories of this giant day as will fit, before I think better. The words we wrote and rewrote in a humid messy kitchen weeks and days before, hot glue and yarn and muslin stuck to us like shrapnel.
Something in the reverence of this land and this moment, in stepping into this decision under the holiness of mountain ranges risen up like elders or God. I can’t help but fall in love with the unique characters and the addicting plot line. I think this could go a long way in helping me as I transition through the end of my PhD and beyond into whatever the hell is next. I learned at a young age that it is better to talk about it with those I am close to than it is hide it and have them end up scared and worried and confused when I hit a rough patch. I am approaching like an anthropologist, of course, because I don’t know how else to do it. Sure CBT has the psychology stamp of approval, but that doesn’t make me any less suspicious. He touches my arm, with intention and firmness, sensitivity and swiftness, and asks if I’m okay. He tells me of the ex-girlfriend for whom his heart still aches and I can relate, feeling as acutely upset leaving Minneapolis this time as I did five months ago.
We agree to meet later in the week for a platonic meal of food, hoping it might produce enough meat and heart and sustenance to feed our souls and cure what ails us. The message was simple: hope and grace and love and happiness can all coexist with the feeling of brokenness.
And I wonder, how does anyone possibly know what loyalty looks like if you’ve never forsaken another? Like a seedling fighting its way through the dense wet earth in search of light, to find air, to find sun, to find all the ingredients that will provide nourishment and potential to grow deep and tall and strong.
Because it’s hard to know how far you can crack open the quietest, loudest, deepest day of your life before some gust of overfamiliarity or casualness blows it all away. So I will tell you quickly about how my little brother stood in the middle of the wedding (which went on and on and on from songs to poems to prayers to advice and story sharing; so fat and wonderful and just as languidly verbose as I am).
Something about it cracked us to our knees and we held these promises up to each other like tithes and penance and thanksgiving and threats to the world.


He talked about each of our responsibilities in this marriage, and how 50 percent won’t come close to covering our shares.
By the love the people we love have built and rebuilt and rebuilt and how they’re willing to teach us how to do it better. These ex quotes are for those persons who have the bitter experiences of relationship and got separated from each other.
That said, I’m trying to check my suspicions at the door and commit to this to see if it is a useful tool for me.
She apologized for saying silly things and I apologized for being unappreciative and we had a kind of moment where our hearts reached across words and miles and we cried together, while pretending to be unaffected and strong. I proclaim with a waver that I am, thank him for his kindness and immediately wish I could hug him awkwardly at the waist.
Hearts were reborn, vows were offered like alms, like offerings to God, to one another, and to the all spirits who proceeded this moment as opportunity to bear witness to this act of courage. They feel ache and pain, pangs of loneliness and of longing, but unlike the belly, a heart can find nourishment in lyrics and poetry and glacial sunrises and smiles and handwritten notes and in late night phone calls with men who broke your heart even though you will proclaim they did not. How could you really know how to be gentle with another human heart if you have never crushed something good with the weight of your own foot? How he called me his second mom and thanked Chris for cutting me free, for giving me back to myself. We thought we knew how to mean and until then we didn’t know Anything, because saying them up there? In every relationship, couple dreams of a great and best exemplary relationship but some couples fail to do so.
I want the people who care about me to know that I understand what is happening and I can find my way out, it just takes time. For a night, the connection made me feel whole and human and alive and a part of a city that still never quite feels like home. Because as we all know, marriage is hard fucking work and if you’re not afraid it could fail - that half the time it does fail - it probably will. This fire, this light, this glowing demonstration of heat and passion couldn’t be possible without the hurt that gave it breath, that gave it life. For giving me back the ease and peace and joy and freedom and shameless ridiculousness I maybe never even had as a child but should have. Somehow they tumbled and spun into oceans and sandbags, ten million times their previous weight.
This love is a single ember, smoldering and steady; when stoked and supported, it can burn infinitely.
Because, finally really, I realized this IS the wonder that’s holding the stars apart.
The real test of endurance comes in the preparation for extremes and in finding the hidden wells of water.



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Comments to «Ex bf wont leave me alone zippy»

  1. HiKi writes:
    The no contact rule and the unhealthy for me and I need also introduced, this is how.
  2. K_O_R_zabit writes:
    The point that I'm getting use to him not being present guy as a result of he was proper.